I promise God never again would I seek vengence against my enemie. I was really hurt back then I wanted to take them all out soon as I step out of the jail cell in 2004. I learn to forgive people for those horrible things they did to me. I learn that God is in control. Aslong as you confess to man and to God asking forgiving. I God would forgive you for all your sins. Just sit back and start repenting. God has bigger plan for me. Roman 8:28.
Alot of people alway tell me Jonny you still look the same since high school. Most the people that I grew up with act differently. For me I'm the same old Jonny. I don't pretend to be something I'm not I keep it real as it is. I never forgot where I came from. I never forgotten my roots. I'm Vietnamese and Chinese I keep my heritage alive in my heart and soul. I seen some Asian that I grew up with acting all super fake. All of a sudden they want to be all Americanize. You don't got to do that to fit in. Just be yourself whose if anyone is like that. I learn to Lead by example. Be a leader not a follower.
If don't by now you should know. I made up my mind this year I decided to get marry in 3 years. For Asian wedding I need atleast 30 grand all up from for the reception place. I need about 3 grand for the wedding cermony at the Hilton rooftop.Also tea cermony I need atleast another 2 grand.6 grand for the photographer.1 grand for the wedding singer. That's a total of about 40 grand. This wedding is going to be big. On myside of the family atleast 35 table this is not including my friend and extended family..
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I haven’t blog on this like forever. There’s so much on my mind words can not express how I feel. You ever like someone and they like you but you both know you can’t be together. When you give them your heart but they take you for granted? Seem like some people are cold blooded. I guess this why I’m the way I’am. I waited for this person for a long time but she never knew they way I feel for her. This why I secluded myself away from her, I isolated myself on purpose. I’m so tired of all the little childish game that she been playing for me for years. I learn a lot from this everything happen for a reason this why we are not together. For many years I could not understand this but now I realize she not the one for me. I can’t be with a women that always let her friend bad mouth me.It’s funny because they don’t know how well connected I’am or what I’m capable of? There’s saying “the most fear is knowing the unknowning?”
For many years you have left me in the dark. Mislead me for many many years leave me hanging there with all the confusions. I had hope and dreamt being together. But I guess the handle of time took me away from you. I'm sorry if I went away without saying good bye. I guess it was never meant to be at all. We both had feeling for one another but we never got together. Sometime I sit here and ask why? Why me? I guess things happen for a reason. Sleep well my dear sleep well. One day you'll see me again when it's time for me to leave to my crossroad. Rest in Heaven. We'll see each other again. There's always a place in my heart for you.
